Hiding behind the stress....

I am a stress eater.  Food is what I have always turned too for comfort during difficult times.  When I started program back in June of 2013, I thought I had kicked the stress eating habit to the curb.  These past few weeks my stress level has been rather high.  As I got ready for work the other day, I wanted to wear my comfy size 12 pants.  But putting them on, they did not feel so comfy.  Needless to say my heart sank.  I was hiding behind the stress with food, JUNK FOOD.  Stress and junk food are a powerful thing.  Funny thing is as much as I was upset with the unhealthy choices I was making, I continued to make them.  My mom kept encouraging me to talk to my health coach and dear friend Heather, but I avoided it.  I felt like a failure.  Not just to the program that has worked so well for me, but my health coach,  my family, friends, and everyone who has supported me on this journey.   Admitting that I was struggling was just not something I wanted to face.  

This past week I basically started day 1 again.  And I did great this entire week.  Until the stress hit in yesterday.....which carried to today.  I was just determined to just eat my stress away.  And then I was approached by a friend who wants to change their eating habits and start their journey towards health.  I felt like I was just slapped in the head with a HUGE wake up call.  I am succeeding and love telling everyone how I have done it but when I get stressed I let that dictate the rest of my life.  NOPE, not gonna let it.  

Yes tomorrow will be day 1 again, but day 1 with a different meaning than last weeks day 1.  I had a great talk with my mom, and the fact that I have gone from laying on the couch and sleeping all the time, to playing tag with my kids and constantly being on my feet, I have made amazing changes in my life.  I realized I cannot focus on the OOPS' I have but need to focus on the "where I want to be" and I will succeed with any challenge put before me.

So where do I want to be......well I am signed up for four Portland Park 5k races, I have signed up for the 5k Cosmic Run, 5k Slime Run, and Warrior Dash.  I also plan to sign up for the 5k foam fest and 8k run in the Race for the Cure, and my half marathon in September or October.  So 7 races so far and three more to go......I guess running my stress away, and reaching 145lbs!  Life cannot get much better than this, so for me NO MORE HIDING BEHIND THE STRESS.....I am going to confront it with my head held high and not let it dictate my future.  It was a huge part of my past and that is where it is going to stay.  Here's to a happy, healthy day 1!!!!!